Week 1: Getting down with the basics

Weigh In: 254.6

Yesterday I went shopping for the food I would need for this week as well as cooking up a few things to have on hand.  I will be following the Dietary Exchange program that my doctor put me on while I went through the medical fast last year.  I get a food budget of 1200 calories, but all “counting” comes in the form of dietary exchanges.  My exchanges look like this:

1200 Calories

5 Protein

3-5 Vegetables

2 Dairy

3 Fruit

5 Carbohydrates

3 Fats

3 Miscellaneous

One baby step at a time…

I’ve thought about what I need to do so much, that I’ve paralyzed myself.  I’m so paralyzed, I’m trying to avoid my problems by distracting myself.  That is something I have become very good at this past year, even though I have some really good ideas to try.

Ok, here they are:

1. Review the program.  Re-read the materials I got from my 6 month class. The medical fast I went through really brought a lot of my unconscious decisions to the surface.  I had to face decisions I had been making.  I was forced to realize why I hid behind food and the messed up image I had of myself.  I conquered my own perception of things, and it felt really empowering.  I need to rediscover that, because I think it will be encouraging.
2. Plan my meals. Planning my meals and sticking to the structure that I discovered was so easy.  Of course, it was easy to stop doing it too and that’s a big part of why I am here.  Again.  I need to be conscious of my eating choices and aware of my progress towards a healthy diet.  My portions need a new perspective.
3. Exercise. During my program, I discovered an internal yearning to run.  I started to run and it felt really good.  But I am scared of running.  I don’t know why; even thinking that truth sounds silly in my head.  I am going to train for a 10k.  It will be in 6 months.

6 months is nothing!  The medical fast was 6 months long and I got through it.  This time, I’ll be able to eat real food the entire time.  I can do it.  🙂